Wednesday, August 15, 2012

A letter to my child I have not yet met

Written almost 2 years ago on November 12, 2010 ...after many sleepless nights, when the Lord spoke clearly to me "pursue adoption". Elijah was 6 months old, and Micah 2 1/2.

"Dear child,

"I don't know your name. I don't even know where you live. You may not even be born yet but the Lord has a good plan for you. He has been working on our hearts for a long time. Since Daddy and I were single, we thought abot adoption. We talked about it when we were dating and engaged. We both saw what life was like in orphanages- Daddy in Kazakhstan and myself in South Africa. We saw the loneliness and the hopelessness and decided, even in our singleness, that we would one day adopt."

"God tells us to take care of the orphan. God tells us to make disciples of all nations. We desire to obey these commands. We want to bring you home with us. Last month, in October [in 2010], we decided that we wouldn't just talk about adoption anymore, but that we wanted it to become a reality. If we don't, we'd be disobedient to God Almighty. We don't have any extra money right now, but because we fear the Lord, we are taking a blind leap of faith. I was laying in bed one night when I heard it start to rain and the Lord reminded me that if He will supply water and provide for the birds, He will surely provide for us to adopt you. We desire to live counter-culturally and radically. We do not look at our circumstances, which tells us "no, don't adopt" but we look upon the Lord. He can do the impossible. With God all things are possible. So we're beginning the application process now. Actually, I just finished it. I'm waiting for $500 for the application fee [side note- I went to the mailbox later that week, and there were 3 checks in the mail- for $700!!!] We are trusting God for all $30,000 [another side note- As I write this, the Lord has provided $20,000 so far]"

"I'm so sorry you were abandoned. I'm so sorry that you will have to leave your country behind. I'm so sorry that you may never know your biological family. I don't understand it all. But I do believe that your biological mother made a good choice to birth you. I'm excited to meet you. Daddy and Micah and Elijah are excited to have a new brother or sister too."

"I will fight for you, dear child. I will search high and low for that money so that we can bring you home with us. People think I'm crazy, but that's what they said about Jesus too. I'm willing to be like Jesus, for you."

Love, your Mommy"

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